Think positive- right?

Well, it's hard to stay positive but I'm trying. At least your going to bed early the other night was just about sleep. I guess you just needed more. You play so hard and avoid taking naps at all costs now. Your blood draw was good on Tues. Counts are right where they need to be. Yay. With only 3 months to go I am praying we don't have any more road bumps.
I'm not going to get into details, but it looks like I will have to join the rest of the world and go to work. Not sure what I'm going to do, but I need to do something unless a miracle happens quick. Oh and believe me, I will be praying for one. I so don't want to leave you. Not yet. Not until you are older, and in school. Life is just one struggle after another right now. I'm just so glad I have you and your siblings to keep me going. Especially you and that cheesy smile. You radiant energy and your big unconditional love. You are always asking me " mommy, are you happy?" I think you are meaning  to say "are you okay?" You are the sweetest little angel. Thank you for being my baby. I love you.

Can't help but worry.

You have been sleeping since 5 o'clock. Why oh why? Is it the Vinc hitting you? Is it the upped dose of 6mp? Are you getting sick? Or, are you just tired from a long weekend of camping and fun? Please tell me it's from camping. You look fine, and act fine, but I never know with you. Only 3 months and 10 days of chemo left. I just want to get you through this with out any more hospital stays. They are so hard on you. All the antibiotics and being hooked up all day and stuck in a room is no way for my muffin to spend her time.
Learned of a couple more cancer diagnosis recently. It saddens me. Far too many. Why? Babies and children. It's just not right. Although all the cancer fighting cuties I know, have amazing spirits and are great examples to us all. It just makes me sad that you little ones have to teach us sometimes.

Summer is coming. Should have been here by now if you ask me, but I'm sure it's on the way. 2 more days of school left. You will be happy to have all the kids home for a while. We're going to have lots of fun!