About Me:

I'm a very happy and delightful person. I love spending time with my family. I am active and affectionate. I am strong and inspiring. I love all living things and I am easy to please. My mom thinks I am very easy to love. I bring joy, light, and love to our family. I am like a sweet sticky substance that bonds our family together. On July 6th, 2009 When I wss only 13 months old, I was diagnosed with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia. I started Chemo Therapy the next day. I'm not going to lie.. it is nasty stuff, but it is saving my life. I am doing my best to not let it slow me down. I love life. I have a lot yet to experience and I am always reaching.

Look at me now

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Should I worry?

Okay, so it's 10:42 p.m. I put you down for a nap at about 5:30. You were looking a little worn out from a late night up watching Beauty And The Beast with Mikayla, an early morning Hopekids movie and a baby shower earlier today. I thought "perfect" I'll just put you down for a short nap while I pick my tomatoes, and clean up the kitchen. Well, it's been 5 hours. I can't help but worry. Are you coming down with something? Should I sneak in and check your temp? Should I listen to see if you are breathing okay? Ugh! I hate this! Maybe it is yesterday's dose of Methotrexate. Maybe I let you have to much sugar today and your blood sugar has plummeted. Maybe you are just tired. This sucks. I don't mean to be negative, I'm just venting. I'm sure you are just plain old tired. You are after all, still a growing kid. You run around like no kid I have ever seen too. You are so full of life energy it makes me tired to just watch you sometimes.
The boys are out hunting today. It's Sterling's first Elk hunt. You miss them and you miss your animals. It's pretty peaceful with out all those bodies coming and going in and out of the house, but, I miss them too. I wish we could be there, but it's finally getting too cold. I must admitt too, I like my time with my girls.
So you are down to 11 months of treatment. I'm so happy. I'm so happy that we were blessed to have you in our lives. So happy and grateful that the Lord has allowed you stay with us. I'm so grateful for the doctors and nurses who care enough about you and other kids to do their best to take care of you. We have been blessed to live in a time and a place where treatment is so easily available for you. I'm so blessed with 4 amazing kids. You are all so special and so good. It's an honor to be a mother of such special people. I truely don't deserve any of you, but I'd fight to my death if any one tried to take any of you from me. I will do whatever it takes to keep you all here with me. I think it's safe to say the same of your Dad. He loves you all so much.
Well, I guess I will go and check on you. I hope you are getting some good rest. I hope I'll get some tonight too!
Love you Jenna B!

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