About Me:

I'm a very happy and delightful person. I love spending time with my family. I am active and affectionate. I am strong and inspiring. I love all living things and I am easy to please. My mom thinks I am very easy to love. I bring joy, light, and love to our family. I am like a sweet sticky substance that bonds our family together. On July 6th, 2009 When I wss only 13 months old, I was diagnosed with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia. I started Chemo Therapy the next day. I'm not going to lie.. it is nasty stuff, but it is saving my life. I am doing my best to not let it slow me down. I love life. I have a lot yet to experience and I am always reaching.

Look at me now

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Feeling Disturbed

Well It's just been too long since my last blog. You are doing amazingly well and I literally thank my Father in Heaven daily for that. You are almost 4 yrs old and still just as spunky as ever!
You finished treatment last September. What a huge weight off of my shoulders, but with that comes new worries. I always look at  you closely and analyze your color. I shouldn't but I can't help myself. I am a total nutrition freak over your diet. Once again I just can't stop myself. I try to relax and just let you be a kid, but I will always do my best to protect you. I thought I always did. I was so blind sided by the illness. I still wonder how it happened.
I was just looking over old photos. They are bitter sweet. 1st,  the pics of you before we knew,  make me happy to see how adorable you were and remind me of how blissful my ( our) lives were before you had cancer.  Secondly, I look back at all pics of  you going through treatment. Ugh. I am so glad and feel so blessed that everything went as well as it did, but at the same time I can't help but be angry that you had to suffer. I don't think angry is the right word, but I just  can't describe how I feel. It was so awful. We went through Hell and back. That's all I can say. And you my amazing, strong, and determined daughter played, laughed, smiled, danced, grew, learned and taught others the entire time. Do you know who you are? A warrior princess straight from heaven! You have brought our family closer together since before you born and you continue you bond us and others together still. I love all of my  children so much. You each have special qualities, but you are a light for our family and we all know it.
I haven't blogged for such a long time, I'll try to briefly catch up.
Summer was awesome... camping, friends, playing. No hospital stays!

It was so close to normal. Then you had your port removed in August and finished all chemo and meds in September. (well, except for the antibiotic Septra) To celebrate we took you on a pack in trip to Wyoming on the horses. It was so nice and peaceful. You loved it!  In Oct Sterling was Elk hunting there and had a horse accident. He was badly injured and had to be flown via helicopter to PCMC. He suffered injuries to his brain. It was very scary, but he is fine now. I enrolled Sky and Mikayla in a new school. It is far away so we spend a lot of time driving. It has been a good thing for them and you don't mind the car ride. You are my little buddy. I love spending every day with you. I don't know what I will do when you go to preschool in the fall. I will be lost and broken hearted. You finally started dance and are learning to become a beautiful ballerina! I can't wait to see you perform. You love going to church and love playing with your little friends and cousins. You are a helper to me all day. You want to help do all the things I do. Your favorite chore is taking treats ( produce peels and such) to the horses. Your hair is long and flowing. It's just gorgeous!
I cherish every day I have with you and the other kids. Today is Mikayla's 10th birthday, Skyler turned 11 two weeks ago and you will be 4 in 6 weeks. Time is just flying by and you guys are growing and changing so much. Ster is almost 15! I am getting old.
Well, I better go to bed now.
Sleep tight Jenna B.  May angels watch over and protect you always.


  1. I just noticed the "playlist" for this blog, I couldnt have thought of better songs to represent this blog. I am so happy for you and your family for all that they have been through, all that has been dealt with, all that has been overcome. I ask about your family when I speak with Lonnie and Alan and am always happy to hear that things are good and you are happy. Stay strong little Jenna and know that you have so many praying and thinking of you. Your spirit and strength push me to try harder, because I tell myself if you can do it, I can surely handle anything I have to deal with.

    1. I don't know if my first reply went through. I still don't quite know what I am doing here. Just wanted to thank you for your kind words.