Cure Search

  Okay, so I don't know where to begin or how to start with this. I usually just blog as if I am speaking to Jenna. It's just my way of sort of journaling  for her since she is so young and doesn't really understand what she is going through. I try to write my point of view for her hoping that someday she will be able to read and understand what we are going through without my dwelling on the gloom. But now I am writing for  anyone who listen.
Cure Search is having a walk in SLC this year. July 9th as a matter of fact. I know, I know it is very short notice but at least it doesn't give any one time to forget right? This such an important cause. I beg you all to to think, consider and check into it, and most of all I am begging you to donate. Anything, $1, $5, $50 whatever, it all adds up. If you have time, please join our little Jenna and I as we walk for all the children who have had, do have and most importantly.....WILL have cancer. The numbers of children diagnosed each year are astonishing! You may not realize how many children there are in Utah with cancer. I know I didn't. You don't see too many sick bald headed children out and about. There is good reason for that. You see, they are probably sick in hospitals, being treated in hospitals,  sick and on meds at home or just  stuck at home sheltered from all the outside illnesses and germs from a compromised immune system due to their "TREATMENTS"  But I promise you they are there. Lets not forget the special angels that have already passed as well. Most of them passed even after suffering through their " treatments".
Although treatments have gotten better, I don't think it's nearly good enough. So many children had to suffer and die to get us to the point we are at now, but still we are losing precious lives. Jenna's cancer had very good odds, some are not so lucky and even with her odds, I don't think its good enough. NO child should have to suffer the treatments we have now, and NO child should perish from Cancer or it's treatments.
It's been so hard to explain to Jenna why we still give her medicine and why we still check her blood when she is not sick in her 3 yr old eyes. No cough, no runny nose, no fever, no vomiting, etc. She is on a low dose chemo everyday  and has a weekly chemo @home and  from what I hear from moms who have older kids is that they still feel a little yucky, but it is doable. Jenna probably doesn't know what it feels like to feel really good. And what do I tell her if she figures out that the Chemo they give her monthly at the hospital is causing her to really feel yucky for about a week or so? Will she understand that we make her sick to keep her healthy? Hmm.
This is where you come in and anyone else who cares about kids at all.
Bottom line is that children's cancer research is far too under funded. We need cures for these guys. We need better treatments so  kids diagnosed with cancer  can have a chance to just be kids and live the long happy lives we all deserve. I'm  not asking for this on behalf of Jenna, she has and is already suffering through her treatments. She is almost done, only about 9 weeks left. Then all we have to worry about is a relapse which would be VERY bad , other cancers later from treatment, and late affects such as learning disabilities, infertility etc. You get the idea. I am positive. I think she is going to be just fine. I'm just saying those are possibilities.
I am asking you all to consider and pass the word on. Raise awareness and funding for children's cancer. It  could your be your child, your grandchild, niece, nephew, bratty neighbor kid , anyone. We never know who cancer will strike next. I never understood or really even thought about it until I found  myself in a hospital 2 years ago this week in July with my baby as I begged God ( and still do) to let her stay here with me and our family. Please help all our future children diagnosed with cancer.  Our beloved children all deserve the best odds.

Thank you so much for even reading this.
God Bless XOXOX

Aubrey

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P.S.
The kiddos in this video are all Utah kids including a few pics of Jenna.

Think positive- right?

Well, it's hard to stay positive but I'm trying. At least your going to bed early the other night was just about sleep. I guess you just needed more. You play so hard and avoid taking naps at all costs now. Your blood draw was good on Tues. Counts are right where they need to be. Yay. With only 3 months to go I am praying we don't have any more road bumps.
I'm not going to get into details, but it looks like I will have to join the rest of the world and go to work. Not sure what I'm going to do, but I need to do something unless a miracle happens quick. Oh and believe me, I will be praying for one. I so don't want to leave you. Not yet. Not until you are older, and in school. Life is just one struggle after another right now. I'm just so glad I have you and your siblings to keep me going. Especially you and that cheesy smile. You radiant energy and your big unconditional love. You are always asking me " mommy, are you happy?" I think you are meaning  to say "are you okay?" You are the sweetest little angel. Thank you for being my baby. I love you.